My Oh-So-Vague Life

I've been having an 'out-of-body' experience for the last few weeks.26051 Not in a creepy, floating-around-the-room-looking-down-at-myself way. It's been more of a vague, going-through-the-motions kind of way. And I'm not too fond of this.

I've come to discover when I feel that vagueness, that feeling of indecision and doubt, they are all tools the enemy uses to get and keep me off track.

Sigh. I hate when this happens.

I hate it, because it means I've let something slip into my day that's more important than Jesus. This is one of the enemy's sly tricks, his making us think, "God wouldn't find that objectionable now, would He?"

"You can read your Bible tomorrow, it can wait, can't it?" "Oh, you deserve a day to be lazy..." "Yes, exercising might make you feel better, but it hurts too much to do it now...maybe later.."


If you think about it, it's the very same lie he used on Eve, back in the garden.

In Genesis 2:17, God clearly states-"But you must not eat from the tree of knowledge of good and evil... Yet in Genesis 3:1, the serpent said to the woman, "Did God really say,'You must not eat from any tree in the garden'?" The enemy twists God's words, and introduces vagueness to God's direct commands.

I've found God is very direct when speaking to us.

The story of Asa in 2 Chronicles 14-16 spoke to me. In chapter 14, Asa, King of Judah, "did what was good and right in the eyes of the LORD his God. He removed the foreign altars....he commanded Judah to seek the LORD..." (vs 2-4). King Asa had great success during his years of his reign, putting to death those who would not seek the LORD (2 Chronicles 15:13). The Lord rewarded their actions. (vs 15) Yet, we see that Asa, knowing what God commanded, still "did not remove the high places from Israel"(vs 17).

Choosing to not get rid of ALL false gods was the beginning of the downward spiral. Asa's heart was "fully committed to the LORD all his life" (verse 17). Yet he left seeds of the enemy still able to flourish.

What was keeping me from having that all-consuming right relationship with my LORD?

And I looked at my day...

I noticed I spend an awful lot of time in front of the TV...just for background noise...and the ever-present sitcom reruns...

During my quiet time, (which, yes...was actually quiet this time)the LORD asked what I was going to do about it. I immediately started my diatribe about strict times it could be on during the day, what I would do during that usual litany of excuses...

and I saw they were excuses.

Excuses for not spending time with Him, reading, writing, researching...

These very things I had been asking Him to help me with, to make time for, to make priorities in my life-- were the things I thought I had taken care of, but sadly, had not.

I saw Asa in the mirror.

And he doesn't look good on me.

I have a new way to pray now... A new way to start my day...

It is easier to DO your way into new thinking- than to THINK your way into new doing.

Ingrained habits are never easy to change, but it can be done.

How has He spoken to YOU today?

Prayer Sabbath - "I'm Still At It!"

We had an interesting sermon at church yesterday. Pastor Tammy reminded us that we are growing wiser; we seek revival and God is indeed moving in the hearts of His people. When we grow in the LORD, who else notices that growth? That's right. The enemy.

He is not concerned with the Christian stuck. When we are being stretched and growing in God's Grace and Holy Spirit fire; these are the times when the enemy shudders. These are the times when he does his darnest to get us off track, to get us to take our eyes off of God and the work He has for us to do, and focus on the landslide blocking our path.

The enemy doesn't give a second thought to us, once he has gotten us to look away from our goal.

The enemy of our souls will rape and beat us, and leave us broken and bleeding by the side of the road.

I've been there. I've heard him laughing as he walked away.

(The enemy would like you to think that's the end of the story.)


Jesus is there to pick you up, apply balm to your wounds and help you back to your feet. As you turn to face Jesus, your eyes full of fear(will He be mad at me?)/hope(will He forgive me?)/regret(i'm sorry LORD)/wonder(Oh LORD...i have no words...)/(insert your emotion here)

You see His eyes are filled with love.

Only Love.

You search...yes, only Love--for you.

This is why I pray.

Prayer Sabbath-Day 2

It was not my intention to have a second post about a prayer Sabbath; however, I recieved 5 (yes, count them-FIVE!) prayer requests either Holy Spirit driven, or by e-mail or telephone today. I have always considered myself a prayer warrior. Very early in my Christian journey, I ran across a little book about prayer by Rosalind Rinker. The title escapes me at the moment, but it included the odd (then) concept of conversational prayer--the conversation between God and the pray-er (me).

This concept fascinated me. Being brought up in a denomination that only recited written prayers, this sounded really neat and I timidly tried it, clumsily at first. Apparently I was onto something because I felt the response almost immediately.

The recited prayers did not have the same effect. I started to ask God how He wanted me to pray, and I recieved bits of His Wisdom as He would reveal Himself to me.

A little at a time, always in His Time, He was preparing me for the next step. So again, I could not not pray.

The intercession for God's people needs to be brought before the Lord. The enemy is still lurking about looking for whom he can devour.

"After Jesus had gone indoors, his diciples asked Him privately, 'Why couldn't we drive it out?' He replied, 'This kind can come out only by prayer.' " Mark 9:28-29 (NIV)

A warrior was born.

Prayer Sabbath

I've been led to pray mightily for some friends of mine lately. God seems to bring people to my mind; I've learned to not ignore these 'Holy Spirit nudgings'(as I've learned to call them).

I usually don't know what I'm praying about or any other details. Afterwards I don't even remember that I did pray. Sometimes I'm led to send a note-'just to let you know I'm thinking of you and I prayed today'--sometimes not.

The best part of this is when I know that I have done what I was called to do.

It's an opening of myself; a stretching to believe that He knows better than I do for His own. I am a tiny but necessary part of His plan.

He instructs--I obey--He acts and is glorified by His believers.

"but God has surely listened and heard my voice in prayer." (Psalm 66:19 NIV)