Until I started talking to the Lord about it!
You see, last year I decided to do something a little different. My experience with Lent had always been to give something up. Last year, I wondered what would happen if I added something to my day, rather than eliminate something.
I added prayer.
Please don't misunderstand; I pray my way through many moments each day. I can't remember not doing that. My friends, and even many strangers, know I am a prayer warrior. This was not a sudden experiment into something new. (To read about last year at this time, click here)
I was missing that focused time with God, for NO OTHER REASON than to seek His answer to my question, "What would happen if I added prayer to Lent?"
What would happen indeed?
I don't feel as 'stuck'.
I'm finding the motivation to do the items on my 'to-do' list. I'm not beating myself up over the things that get pushed back a day. I'm seeing His encouragement in the things I read. I'm hearing His approval in the things I'm doing.
And I'm recognizing the enemy's fury with me, as I work to further God's purpose.
Utter depletion? Worthless? So discouraged you border on paralysis? Crying out, chest heaving, cold sweat running as your head pounds...
The enemy does not like this intimacy with God.
But that's just too bad, isn't it?
"Greater is He who is in you, than he who is in the world." ( 1John 4:4 NASB)
"For God is at work in you, both to will and to work for His good pleasure." (Phillipians 2:13 RSV)
"Count it all joy, my brethren, when you meet various trials, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness." (James 1:2 RSV)
Is the enemy beating you up today? Please leave a comment, and I will surely pray for you.