I have time management issues. There, I said it (well, typed it) out loud for all to see. I waste time.
I've even gone as far as writing a schedule out to keep me on task. It starts on a Monday.
And already I failed. (I started yesterday.)
And I had such high hopes, you know? I broke down all the things I need to do, want to fit in; I even left "me" time, a dedicated space for something I decided I really wanted to get done.
Knowing my own bag of tricks, I thought to blame my husband, as he was off yesterday-having the foresight (suggested by me) to take the day after the Super Bowl off so he could catch up on sleep. But I couldn't blame him. It was me, wasting time again. Even this blog post was supposed to be written yesterday--it's on the list. Sigh. Beating myself up again.
Until my devotional time late last night. (OK, it was early this morning, but if I haven't slept yet, it's still night--my rules)
As I admitted my failure on paper, and repented of this sin for the Nth time, the Lord gently spoke to my spirit. I wrote,
"I admit...I'm using any excuse again...to not do what is on my schedule. I admit I do waste time. Oh Lord, I repent of this habit; set a Holy fire within me to kick me out of my comfort zone and into Your fast lane...let me do what it is You have for me to do...I want to bring Glory to You...show me how to fit in blocks of time that aren't wasted..."
And as I was writing, He gently asked, "Was the time wasted?"
But my schedule!
I then read out of Exodus 31. The Lord appointed Bezalel,'filled him with the Holy Spirit to have skill, ability and knowledge in all kinds of crafts'. God created artistic ability in me to be used for His Glory.
I did do work on a commissioned art piece. I did pray with people over the telephone. I did encourage friends on social media. I did get myself out of the recliner (in front of the TV) and into my office for paperwork.
BUT WHAT ABOUT MY SCHEDULE? I failed again.
And He gently chided, "Was it My schedule?"
Proverbs 20:18(NIV)says,"Make plans by seeking advice; if you wage war, obtain guidance."
I'm declaring war against wasting time. It needs to be His schedule, not mine.
I got to make an phone call last night, and ended up encouraging and praying for a woman I never met.
I got to chat on social media with a group of people who do this every week--they come together as a body of Christ to uplift each other. And I, in turn, was blessed beyond measure.
Time wasted? I'm thinking not.
I still have issues with my habit of procrastination.
But I know Who is in charge of my days.
"But seek first His Kingdom and His righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well." Matthew 6:33(NIV)
Time spent with Jesus is never wasted.