I went through my e-mail file that I've been saving to read at a later date. Some of the stuff has been there so long that it no longer applies to anything I'm interested in (like the Christmas 2010 special deals!) I ran across an e-mail I recieved from one of my dear encouragers; one of those priceless people who will ask me hard questions when I whine, or complain, or make any excuse to not get my work done.
Her timing, which is ultimately God's timing, as usual was spot on:
God called me to write. I didn't realize that if it was truly His vision, He would prosper it. I spent a lot of time angsting about such questions,as, will my books sell well; will I get good reviews; will I be able to think of more stories, etc. It was not until recently that I realized all that kind of thinking comes from my flesh. Me, taking ownership of God's vision. I am on a faith journey. I am trusting God to prosper what He ordains...or not. I will do what He asks to the best of my ability, and the rest is up to Him.
I don't know where Delores Liesner got this quote from, but it sure struck a chord with me today as I re-read it again.
I FORGET STUFF
I forget His promises, like "His Grace is sufficient..." (2Corinthians 9:12) and "So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with My righteous right hand." (Isaiah 41:10)
If He has called me to do something, HE WILL equip me to do what HE wants. The enemy of my soul does not want what God wants. This is a classic battle between God and satan. Satan will use whatever he can, whatever lie he can get to work, to defeat victory in Jesus.
He said it. I believe it. That settles it.