My Oh-So-Vague Life

I’ve been having an ‘out-of-body’ experience for the last few weeks.26051

Not in a creepy, floating-around-the-room-looking-down-at-myself way. It’s been more of a vague, going-through-the-motions kind of way. And I’m not too fond of this.

I’ve come to discover when I feel that vagueness, that feeling of indecision and doubt, they are all tools the enemy uses to get and keep me off track.

Sigh. I hate when this happens.

I hate it, because it means I’ve let something slip into my day that’s more important than Jesus. This is one of the enemy’s sly tricks, his making us think, “God wouldn’t find that objectionable now, would He?”

“You can read your Bible tomorrow, it can wait, can’t it?”
“Oh, you deserve a day to be lazy…”
“Yes, exercising might make you feel better, but it hurts too much to do it now…maybe later..”


If you think about it, it’s the very same lie he used on Eve, back in the garden.

In Genesis 2:17, God clearly states-“But you must not eat from the tree of knowledge of good and evil…
Yet in Genesis 3:1, the serpent said to the woman, “Did God really say,’You must not eat from any tree in the garden’?” The enemy twists God’s words, and introduces vagueness to God’s direct commands.

I’ve found God is very direct when speaking to us.

The story of Asa in 2 Chronicles 14-16 spoke to me. In chapter 14, Asa, King of Judah, “did what was good and right in the eyes of the LORD his God. He removed the foreign altars….he commanded Judah to seek the LORD…” (vs 2-4). King Asa had great success during his years of his reign, putting to death those who would not seek the LORD (2 Chronicles 15:13). The Lord rewarded their actions. (vs 15)
Yet, we see that Asa, knowing what God commanded, still “did not remove the high places from Israel”(vs 17).

Choosing to not get rid of ALL false gods was the beginning of the downward spiral. Asa’s heart was “fully committed to the LORD all his life” (verse 17). Yet he left seeds of the enemy still able to flourish.

What was keeping me from having that all-consuming right relationship with my LORD?

And I looked at my day…

I noticed I spend an awful lot of time in front of the TV…just for background noise…and the ever-present sitcom reruns…

During my quiet time, (which, yes…was actually quiet this time)the LORD asked what I was going to do about it. I immediately started my diatribe about strict times it could be on during the day, what I would do during that time…my usual litany of excuses…

and I saw they were excuses.

Excuses for not spending time with Him, reading, writing, researching…

These very things I had been asking Him to help me with,
to make time for,
to make priorities in my life–
were the things I thought I had taken care of, but sadly, had not.

I saw Asa in the mirror.

And he doesn’t look good on me.

I have a new way to pray now…
A new way to start my day…

It is easier to DO your way into new thinking-
than to THINK your way into new doing.

Ingrained habits are never easy to change, but it can be done.

How has He spoken to YOU today?

About Cyn

Cyn Rogalski is a daughter of the Most High God. A prayer warrior, artist, speaker and writer, the work of her hands is meant to draw you to Jesus. Want me to speak at your next retreat, service or gathering? Contact me by leaving a comment below.
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10 Responses to My Oh-So-Vague Life

  1. Hi Cyn, LOVE love LoVe this post! Great words of wisdom. Praise God & thanks for sharing your story. Blessings.

    • Cyn says:

      Robert, thanks SO much for stopping by! This was reprinted at @InspireAFire too. I’m trying to get back into posting twice a week…Still Water & Ponderings (about what God lays on my heart) on Mondays, and ArtFully Speaking (messages about my artwork) on Thursdays. Hope you subscribed! (it will be on twitter too)
      Thanks again for your kind words and encouragement! -Cyn-

  2. Mary says:

    Oh my gosh, this looks so familiar! I’m excited to apply what God showed you to my own life. We all want such control…of everything. Blessings!

  3. A divine wake up call! I start to lazily fall asleep every so often, too… but you have a great hunger to be with Him, Cyn, and your hunger woke you up! That’s what is so very awesome about your story here today!

    Blessed are they who hunger and thirst… like a deer panting for water. What I love most about your story, Cyn, is that you ARE like that deer panting for water. It’s between you and God if there are any external changes in your lifestyle to made… whatever is on your heart to do, do….

    But I hope you don’t chastise yourself…. because dear heart, I believe He’s well-pleased with you! You woke up hungry and thirsty for Him! That’s a clear victory – you won it.

    As for me, I had to just get rid of television altogether. I’m not strong enough to make boundaries. I’m a wimp about that! 🙂

    • Cyn says:

      Dear Susan, you are one of the UN-wimpiest people I have have the pleasure of knowing!
      I don’t always recognize His call to do, or not do, something, but He made this quite clear. Today is a victory, but the evil one lurks around, ready to try again tomorrow.
      I hold on to His strength, because I CAN do all things through He Who strengthens me.
      Thank you, my faithful friend, for your constant encouragement and love over the miles. Love you my sister! -Cyn-

  4. I love this post, Cyn, and I’m so there with you!

    • Cyn says:

      Thank you for your kind words Vonda. It helps to know others feel this not-up-to-snuff feeling as well. What a Mighty God we serve! -Cyn-

  5. Carol Weeks says:

    I’m with you all the way, Cyn. I could have written this, although you have expressed it much better than I could. Old habits have been showing up just when I thought I was making progress. I’m so grateful that God always gives us another chance…

    • Cyn says:

      I’m glad I was able to properly convey my heart Carol. I know He isn’t done with me yet. There’s a whole new daily routine I need to get into, and it’s not gonna be easy! Of course, the things most worthwhile never are. I suspect there will be more posts of this type, as my eyes are opened to more things/habits sneaking in.
      And yes, I, too am grateful for His next chance. Thanks for stopping by! -Cyn-

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