Afterthoughts – Part 3 (Conclusion)

It requires great pressure to create a jewel.

It requires great pressure to create a jewel.

I’m always amazed, but not surprised, at how God works.

I’m glad to say I no longer feel like an afterthought.

 

Here I was feeling like something you would scrape off the bottom of your shoe, while He was working things behind the scenes and urging people to encourage me. Whether a blog post, a Facebook or Pinterest post; even a tweet…all His timing.

(If you’ve missed the previous parts of this journey, you can read Part 1 here and Part 2 here. )

God used wonderful writers, especially Lisa Buffaloe, to speak to my heart–even in the days I could do nothing, barely feeling anything. The enemy loves when we are in such a state. In Lisa’s book, “No Wound Too Deep“, she writes,”He (Satan) is out to spoil anything good by planting doubts, insecurities, lies, and stirring the pots of the past to create havoc and destruction.” And on the very next page, Lisa points us to truth, “We don’t have to limp through life. We don’t have to believe the enemy’s lies that some things are just too bad or too deep for God’s healing touch.”

The harder Satan leaned on me, using memories of these injustices I faced, the more I felt the roots of what God wanted to grow in me strengthen.

A diamond is only formed from great pressure and heat.

Lisa writes, “There are blessings in the wrestling, the not letting go…the wrestling to venture beyond the quick, addictive temporary ‘fixes’ of this world, or the shrugging of the shoulders and caving in to believe the enemy’s lies. The blessings come when we wrestle until the dawn of understanding breaks.” (emphasis mine)

God will not waste any of my experiences. 

God didn’t waste any part of Saul/Paul’s life. (after his conversion. You may read his story in Acts, chapter 9)

God used his background, his training, his citizenship, his mind, and even his weaknesses to accomplish His greater purpose.

So while I was being trampled, sucker punched, and left for dead by the side of the road, God had something better in mind.

Don’t get me wrong–I hated it when I was going through it. If I had known what was going to happen, I probably wouldn’t have chosen that route…and I would have missed the growth that can only happen in the valley.

So what did I learn?

First and foremost, God is still God. He is the same, all the time. And that brings me to the second thing.

God’s opinion of me is the only one I need. I had made the fatal mistake of allowing what someone else thought of me to skew my own vision of myself.

Scars remain. Proof I was in the battle. But I’m a bit wiser…and a lot more interested in what God has to say; how He chooses to use me in whatever situation He allows me to be in.

Are you willing to let God do the same to you?

You will never know all He can do with you until you allow Him to have all that you are.

Are you in?

 

 

Content from Lisa Buffalo used with permission. Thank you Lisa!

Be sure to visit her websites,

LisaBuffaloe.com and LivingJoyfullyFree.com

 

 

 

 

This part of my journey has been a battle.

I’m weary, battle fatigued, and wary.

About Cyn

Cyn Rogalski is a daughter of the Most High God. A prayer warrior, artist, speaker and writer, the work of her hands is meant to draw you to Jesus. Want me to speak at your next retreat, service or gathering? Contact me by leaving a comment below.
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9 Responses to Afterthoughts – Part 3 (Conclusion)

  1. Rachelle says:

    Cyn,
    You are not an afterthought. You are a beautiful child of God, so gifted, so blessed. Didn’t you feel joyful once you accepted that fact??!?! Thanks for sharing your “wrestling.” I have been working on blog posts dealing with some of the same material. I might have to quote you!

    <3

    • Cyn says:

      Thanks for your comments, Danie Marie and Rachelle. Like anything else we experience, it’s hard to see clearly when you’re smack dab in the middle of it. Wanting to keep putting one foot in front of the other, I now have clearer direction. Thanks for stopping by with a comment! –Cyn

  2. Danie Marie says:

    So glad you realize that you are not an afterthought, Cyn! Nothing our creator does is an after thought, but a precious work of art … which you are. I pray the Lord brings healing and comfort for all you’ve suffered, that He be glorified, and other women be touched by your story.

    Love you Sis!
    Danie

  3. Great post, Cyn. Those scars you speak of are also proof to the enemy – and to you – that you SURVIVED the battle.

    • Cyn says:

      Yes Delores, the scars are reminders of the battle. Praising Him for healing.
      Thank you so much for stopping by to comment, my faithful prayer warrior friend!
      –Cyn

  4. Carol Weeks says:

    “I’m glad to say I no longer feel like an afterthought.” That was the best sentence in this whole post! We all need reminding that God loves us and carries us through our battles in life. Thanks, Cyn, for reminding me…

  5. Enjoyed your blog posts Cyn. They have encouraged me greatly! Bless you, Lisa

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