Afterthoughts — Part 2

www.CynRogalski.com Afterthoughts - Part 2God’s timing, as always, is perfect.

I haven’t written anything on this blog, or anywhere, for that matter, since my last post, Afterthoughts — Part 1,  back in September, 2013.

Been a tough time…this last 18 or so months…

Learned some stuff, thankfully, along the way. And still learning.

Apparently, 2014 was a year of healing.

Confessing to God I was brokenhearted, instead of glossing over my feelings or making excuses.

I had been seduced by the enemy of my soul, an elaborate hoax aimed squarely at the most tender part of my heart, where the hurt is the most paralyzing.

During this time of seeming inactivity, I have been unable to write, sculpt, send encouraging notes…even spend deep times of study in my Bible. Knowing all these things are a detriment to a Christian’s spiritual life, I tried on more than one occasion–but the answer was the same.

NO.

All I could do was pray. Some “Hey Lord, I need some help here!” prayers…others more in depth–more often questions than not; an outpouring of  utterances. Sometimes simply sitting in front of my open Bible, letting the tears fall…

Grief, washing over me, like rain…

–I was blindsided by unhealthy friendships.
–I lost a job I loved.
–One of the unhealthy friendships struck so deep, it caused a scrutiny of other friendships, questioning their health as well as leaving me afraid to reach out at all.
–We lost 3 dogs, rescues we’ve had since 2006.
–Numerous deaths of friends from younger days, including my Matron of Honor.
–Add in health issues, elevated costs with no elevation of resources, and a withdrawing in general; not as an escape but a re-examining to be sure I was indeed in God’s Will for my life…

All the while being aware of my limited time on Earth.

I was a mess.

So I pondered.

The Lord led me to authors like Beth Moore ( When Godly People Do Ungodly Things )

God keeps no record of wrongs, (1 Corinthians 13:5) but you can bet Satan does. He’s a meticulous note taker.

and Lisa Buffaloe, whose books, No Wound Too Deep, and Unfailing Treasures, drew me in, giving me a guidebook of sorts when I was unable to seek the Lord in my own strength. (I highly recommend Lisa’s book, No Wound Too Deep for anyone experiencing pain…and it’s free Tuesday and Wednesday, May 26 & 27)

I could hear God speaking, whispering, through their words; revealing to me bit by bit His Thinking, His Master plan…enabling me to have peace.

I could feel myself getting stronger, closer to overcoming this dark place of gut-wrenching hurt, but not quite there yet.

So I’ve spent much time…waiting….and placing one foot in front of the other. The wounds have begun their healing; it doesn’t smart when I run my finger of memory over the scars anymore.

Once I admitted I was heartbroken, the healing could begin.

This journey isn’t over yet, but I’m in a much better place to go on…

 

No longer an afterthought…but deeply loved by God.

 

 

 

 

 

 

About Cyn

Cyn Rogalski is a daughter of the Most High God. A prayer warrior, artist, speaker and writer, the work of her hands is meant to draw you to Jesus. Want me to speak at your next retreat, service or gathering? Contact me by leaving a comment below.
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16 Responses to Afterthoughts — Part 2

  1. Craig says:

    Cyn, this post is going to be encouraging for so many Believers who struggle daily
    in their walk with The Lord. .. (self included) Sometimes it feels that The Lord is very far away and when I read His Word I’m just going thru the motions, but through Prayer and Biblical Counsel .. I’ve He is my strength during long stretches of weakness. Keep writing. He is using you to encourage us to persevere … with Biblical patient endurance In The Matchless Name of His Son Jesus.. Amen!

    • Cyn says:

      Thank you for your kind words Craig. It is my wish to be used to encourage, with the Bible as my ultimate authority. Thanks so much for stopping by and commenting! His peace to you and your family! –Cyn

  2. Cyn, Thanks for writing this.
    I love it!
    Your words stirred me.
    GOD is always MOOooooVING.
    This blog post touched me and I know it will reach others in a mighty way. You are chosen by HIM no matter what others say, do or choose. I keep reminding myself too. It’s not about this world, it’s all about Him. I’m praying John 16:33 for you now.
    Keep going.
    GODSPEED.
    His timing IS perfect.
    Much Love & prayers, Lisa

    • Cyn says:

      Thanks Lisa. I’ve been longing to get back into writing & creating art again…and the Lord is faithful. He brought me through…and isn’t done yet. Appreciate your prayers for my upcoming projects! –Cyn

  3. Pat says:

    What a beautifully written post! Your words are so visual (much appreciated for this visual person). May the Lord continue bring healing in your life, one day, one moment at a time. Blessings!

    • Cyn says:

      Thank you so much Pat. I know you and your family are going through a rough patch right now too…please know I’m praying.
      Thanks for stopping by with a comment. –Cyn

  4. Beautiful post, sweet Cyn. I’m so sorry for your heartache and pain but very grateful you ran to God’s loving arms.

    Praying for you and so grateful for your friendship.

    • Cyn says:

      Thank you Lisa. Your books have been a big part of my “desert time”…and I’m so grateful. Thank you for listening to God and sharing your experiences; I know I’m not the only one who’s been helped by your words.
      Thanks for commenting, my Twitter friend!
      –Cyn

  5. Renee says:

    Glad to see your post. It is very inspiring. We all go thru “rough patches”and some last a very long time. People may fail us as some come in and out of our lives but there’s always a lesson in those times. We may and often do fail ourselves and there is always a lesson in those times as well. However, we have WONDERFUL Lord and Savior who NEVER fails us. He is always there to teach us those lessons listen to our voice, hold us, correct us but must of all to remind us of His never ending mercy and love ALWAYS.

  6. Oh, Cyn, what a beautiful picture of God’s tender love and mercy to each of His children. Thank you for your transparency, for your willingness to be real in a world of counterfeit lives.

    If we’re honest, we all face times when life hands us a raw deal. That’s when we either turn from Him and hold Him responsible, or turn toward Him and let Him hold us through the pain. Thank you for the reminder that He is always there, waiting for us. Sometimes I forget who He is.

  7. Never an afterthought – you were in His grace and in my prayers. And you ministered to me (and I am sure many others) during this time whether you were aware of it or not.

    Thanks for the personal peek behind your veil, and thanks too for the link to the book.

    As always you are a blessing!

  8. Cathy Biggerstaff says:

    I’m so sorry you’ve had to travel this rocky road, dear Cyn. I’ve noticed your absence on social media and missed you. Praying abundant blessings over you today.

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